Fat Girl Syndrome (FGS)

This is a very serious syndrome. Girls have issues. Let's get that out of the way. We are always self evaluating, self scrutinizing, self harassing, self everything because let's be honest, it's all about you. Don't ever let anyone tell you differently. I am dead serious. My mom always told me, "No one can make you happy but yourself." True dat Mama K.

I remember I was a freshman at UD when my mom did the hardest thing a mom could do. She told me I didn't look good in an outfit. She didn't say it because she was trying to hurt me but she was trying to save me. I was wearing ill fitting clothing and acting like it was completely okay. I suffered from Fat Girl Syndrome (FGS). It's the idea that you think you look good anything. You don't. You REALLY don't. Symptoms of FGS include but are not limited to:

-Muffin tops
-Too tight clothing
-Repetition of the line, "I am going to find a man that loves me and not my body."
-Skinny jeans that no longer look skinny but look like actual skin
-Eating to hide your feelings
-Excuses for not going to gym or trying to work out
-Drinking too much and making an ass of yourself on the dance floor because you look "sexy" in that strapless dress.
- Camel toe

You are probably thinking to yourself that I am a complete bitch for saying this but I am being honest. I wish someone had said this to me. I wish my mom didn't have to do something that goes against every fiber in her being. She shouldn't have to tell her daughter, "You look bad in that outfit and you need to change." Her daughter should have realized that her clothes were inappropriate.

I didn't really see my own body until I hit my highest weight of 245 my junior year of college. I decided enough was a enough and tried my best to figure out how to lose weight in college. That summer I went home and I tried Nutrisystem. It really showed me how much I was eating and how much actually NEEDED to eat. I love food but I want to eat food because I love it NOT because I feel like I need to eat it. It's that need that makes eating hard. I feel like I constantly need to eat. My friend Kelli asked me where I am starting and what are my point values. I am going to put myself out there and post a lovely picture of myself with my stats.

Height: 5'7"
Starting weight: 198
Current weight: 193
Goal weight: 179.5
Points allowed per day: 31
Anytime Points: 49
Highest weight in lifetime: 245
Lowest weight in lifetime: 165