Feeling Fat...yeah so am I. That's why I made Mac and Cheese.

Obviously this is the most fattening, most delicious, most guiltiest of all pleasures. Cheese. Cheese is so damn divine that I cannot explain it with words. I can only say that if I were offered a job that I got to taste cheese all day and do nothing else, I would take it and throw it everyone's face that I get paid to eat cheese.
This afternoon, with snow on the ground and my Fat Girl Syndrome hitting hard, I knew I had to make something that was savory and warmed my big ol' belly. That my friends is Mac and Cheese. Not just any Mac and Cheese but Valveeta Mac and Cheese. With this in mind, I chose ingredients that were lower in fat over all but still delicious. Let's be real...you won't eat it unless it's good.
I got the recipe from Kraft Recipes but I made some skinny decisions.

I added Turkey bacon, sweet peas, 2% milk cheeses (Mozzarella and Cheddar), and non-fat milk. I know it's still fattening and not the healthiest of foods for you but once again...you won't eat it unless it's good. And skinny doesn't always taste good. It's all called moderation people. I didn't eat the entire try (that's what I have Kevin for) and I don't eat seconds (I save for the next day because it saves money and calories).
Of all the Mac and Cheeses I have attempted, this is the best tasting and easiest to make! I hope you enjoy it as much as we did!

I'm really losing it.

I had a terrible food weekend. I discovered my other trigger is cereal. I never knew. The only reason I can think of is that it's so easily accessed. Pour yourself a bowl...or two...or three. Stop judging. I judged myself enough. I ate a shit ton of cereal. No reason in particular. Seriously though, I went ape shit on that cereal. I overate. A LOT. I ate like I was starving. It's completely psychological. I tell myself, "This is it. No more." then I go crazy. I eat everything. From now, I need to slow down and enjoy the show.
I'm realizing more and more that it's my eating habits that are killing but not just what I eat. I notice that my eating schedule is off on the weekends because I'm not eating breakfast at 5:30 am or lunch at 10:30 am. This needs to change. The more realistic way to change this is to wait to eat my breakfast later so that I'm not starving. I also need to give myself those food that I want. Every payday, I go to Starbucks and order a coffee with cream and sugar and a warmed raspberry scone. It's so good, it hurts. I eat it too fast though. If I took my time, I would probably be able to enjoy more.
Today I went grocery shopping and I bought some items that I believe will help or have helped with curving that craving. I also went with the idea of the incredible egg! I hard boiled some eggs and bought snack foods that have the most impact on my hunger.
I bought the Jiff Peanut Butter cups and Planter's snack packs. Hopefully these tricks will help me get it in gear. OH and I ran for 30 minutes at 2.75 miles. Nice and slow :)